My Life ... It's Random

March 20, 1997

I was a fifteen year old sophomore in high school when the first episode of Buffy The Vampire Slayer premiered. I wasn’t popular, wasn’t cool, hung out with a bunch of misfits, even sometimes with a teacher or two.

And there was Buffy Summers, who hung out with her own group of misfits, even the librarian. She navigated the trials and tribulations of high school at the same time I was. Although a bit of escapism, in watching Buffy and her friends I found kindred spirits … a part of me in each of them.

When Buffy and Co. graduated high school in the summer of 1999 [Season 3], so did I … our cap and gown colors were even the same (yes, I geeked out).

As Buffy entered her first year in college [Season 4], so did I.

I lost my mom at the end of 1999.

Mid-way through Season 5 [2000 - 2001], Buffy lost her mom. That episode both moved me and brought the reality of my own situation crashing down on me … And then Anya said what I'm sure lots of people wish they could say but never do. I actually still cannot watch that episode.

Season 6 of Buffy was the darkest of the seasons and aired during some of my own darker moments. Although it was dark itself, the show was one of the few bright spots for me during that time … as I overcame some of my own personal demons by the middle of 2002, so did Buffy by the time Season 6 had ended.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer ended on May 20, 2003 … a part of me is still with the Scooby Gang (although not in Sunnydale since they blew that city to bits … ) The show will forever be a part of me, something to point to as having an impact on who I am now.

I’m ready to be strong.

I actually finished this a while ago, but forgot to do the review *facepalm* ... I'm actually almost done with the fifth book I bought, so that review will come soon LOL

An Unlocked Heart
Since the death of his submissive lover two years ago, Leo hasn’t been living—merely existing. He focuses on making Collars & Cuffs, a BDSM club in Manchester’s gay village, successful. That changes the night he and his business partner have their weekly meeting at Severinos. Leo can’t keep his eyes off the new server. The shy man seems determined to avoid Leo’s gaze, but that’s like a red rag to a bull. Leo loves a challenge.

Alex Daniels works at Severinos to scrape together the money to move out on his own. He struggles with coming out, but he’s drawn to Leo, the gorgeous guy with the icy-blue eyes who’s been eating in his area nearly every night.

Leo won’t let Alex’s hesitance get in the way. He even keeps him away from the club so as not to scare him. And as for telling Alex that Leo is a Dom? Not a good idea. One date becomes two, but date two leads to Leo’s bedroom… and Alex discovers things about himself he never realized—and never wanted anyone to see.

( My Thoughts )

Secrets and Ink
If life was like the movies, Jem Mitchell’s wouldn’t be such a mess. In LA’s glittering world of dreams, he works an unglamorous job at a gourmet grocery store. His past is so deep and dark, the details are lost even to him. All he knows is he was once cursed by a meter maid, and ever since, his love life has sucked.

When Detective Nick Davies becomes a regular at the store, Jem dares to hope he’s un-hexed at last. He should have known that sex with a remarkably normal guy, devoid of weird fetishes and fatal personality flaws, was too good to be true.

During a post-encounter cuddle, Nick recognizes the tattoo on Jem’s back—and remembers him as a young hustler he arrested nine years past.

As Jem’s memories come crashing back, he flees from Nick, but fate contrives to keep pushing them back together. And when Jem’s old partner in crime is found murdered, the stakes are raised for life, for love, and a dangerous drama with no guarantee of a Hollywood ending.
( Thoughts! )

I feel recently, like some fans in some fandoms (and I'm in a couple, so this isn't a jab at any one in particular) have just lost their manners when it comes to interacting with actors/actresses/directors/etc ... Yes, the fourth wall has practically been torn down with Twitter and Tumblr, but ... I feel like you should still respect whatever famous person you are tweeting to ...

Bagging on an actor who they feel didn't do all they should have to keep another actor on a show is uncool ... Tweeting to someone and telling them about how they're making it hard to not ship them with one of their costars is inappropriate.

I just ... when did fans lose their shit and get this feeling of entitlement?  Respect these people who just want to have a little bit of a private life.  I get that they're famous, so they are in the limelight a bit but ... wow.

*shakes my head*  I'm glad I'm not one of the crazy ones.

I think I might need to watch Suits again so I can fully digest and make comments ... there were some things I loved, some things that made me wibbly and some things that kinda ticked me off, but ... MY SHOW IS BACK!!!  *bounces happily*

Feel free to skip on past, but if you leave any hateful comments, they'll be deleted.  This is my journal and I can say what I want.

I watched the NCIS Season 10 Finale last night.  Totally loved it.  However, it didn't change how I've been feeling for the past couple of months.  I feel like there has been something missing from the show for a while now ... it seems to have lost the 'team' ... Not that there haven't been great episodes, but ... *sigh*

Anyway, I kind of feel like Season 11 should be it.  I fee like it has had a really good run, but ... I just think it's a good time.  It gives them a full season to wrap things up and give us a good ending.

So ... last night ... I don't know if I've had time to fully process it, but ... woah.



Louis totally rocked it - standing up to Jessica and Hardman ...

Harvey trying to be honest and nice ... there was just too much animosity between him and Louis, I think.  I mean. he definitely tried.  Hell, he even told Jessica to have Louis take his office!

I'm glad Rachel passed her LSATs!  She's finally getting more plot instead of just being eye candy.

GRAMMY!  I literally sobbed!  Poor Mike ... I just ... I can't come to grips with it right now. 



And the preview for next week!

Some fast and dirty thoughts about last night's ep:



Harvey's mom ... a door has opened!!!

Damn that Tanner!  I'm glad Harvey punched him!

REGINALD!!!!  *flails*

Canon bi!  "Who said I didn't try to sleep with Ted Phillips?" ... said oh so nonchalantly!  

LOUIS!!!  He knocked it out of the park!  And he totally loves Donna *nods*

Harvey listened to Mike(his boyfriend) and settled!!

Hardman ... grrrr ... he used the settlement as a way to try to knock Jessica out as Managing Partner ... bastard.

Previews for the Rewind ep!!!  *flails some more*

So I was listening to Kevin and Bean on KROQ on my way into work this morning.

They were broadcasting from ComicCon and had one of the 'behind the scenes' people from Kevin and Bean on talking about the '50 Shades of Grey (Suck)' autograph signing that happened yesterday and how the author would only sign 200 copies.

Anyway, Ralph Garman (their entertainment guy) made an off hand comment about fanfic writers being 'crazy' and I then spent the next 10 minutes talking to the radio LOL  I guess it just bugged me that he would make a comment like that, and yes I'm sure he didn't make it to offend anyone.  I wasn't necessarily offended it just ... irked me.

Because, while there are some crazies out there, the majority of us are down to earth, hold down jobs and are all in all normal people LOL

That's it.

OMG the feels from last night!!!!  I watched it twice - once on east coast feed and then once from the DVR because I recorded it (the sis is hooked!!!  :D)

So ... some random thoughts



*  Mike really doesn't have as much game as he thinks he does

*  I'm really glad that he broke Rachel's heart ... she flies off the handle, acts first, asks later so ... 

*  Donna and Louis scenes are the shit!!!!

*  Harvey in a tux ... GUH!!!!!  Just ... fucking delicious!!!

*  Every Mike and Harvey scene was just ... amazing!!!!

*  Harvey and Jessica ... and that last scene!  The feels!!!!